Friday, 16 March 2018

Simply Because You Exist...

No matter what they say, what has happened to you or how flawed you are... you are worthy simply because you exist. Even when the voices yell loudly inside your head, string you up like a puppet and run around you in an evil victory tease and dance the devils dance remember you are worthy simply because you are here. If you're put down, push around, trampled on and had your heart ripped apart, you are worthy because you live. It can't be stolen, it can't be sold, it is yours to hold and it remains whole forever and always. It isn't found in romantic relationships, sexual encounters, winning, popularity, social status, perfectionism, materialism, sexuality, money, jobs, grades, achievements, success, education status, weight or appearance all the places society tells you to look, though however it can be found within the depths of self compassion and reminding yourself just by simply existing you are worthy and that is enough.

With hope and love
Rainbow πŸŒˆπŸŒ πŸ’–

Tuesday, 6 March 2018

A Different View!

The other week in my mental health and addictions course the tutor brought up being able to see from a different view and through the eyes of another in which she related it to a photo of a large rock formation in the sea, seeable from the shore. While it looked one way in the first photo that she hadn't taken, in the 2nd photo that she had took it looked another way as it was taken from a different part of the beach and mentioned that we can gain greater depth of understanding, experiences and outlooks depending on where we stand and what angle we are looking at it from. She also related it to trying on different glasses and mentioned that we often don't try on other glasses and/or return fairly quickly to own out of comfort. 

his was in relation in our course with a lot to do with cultural identity and safety. Ultimately we can't expect someone to be or get mentally well if their cultural identity is walked all over and squashed. It is our job in this area to IDENTIFY and RESPECT a person's cultural identity and to work WITH a person not against them. Cultural identity is also not just a person's ethnicity either it can include the groups and activities people are apart of, age and sexual orientation etc. We are all a part of many different cultural groups that make up who we are, we have beliefs, values, attitudes, practices (things we do and don't do) and celebrations because of these. They may directly correlate with that group or may differ but still align with it, we may hold certain beliefs, values, attitudes, practices and celebrations that are apart of that group but not others. Our very first assignment was actually on our own cultural identity so we had an understanding of who we are, our beliefs, values, practices and celebrations in which I picked the Self Love culture as part of the cultural identity that makes up who I am. 

It's important that we all walk to different spots on the beach and see from another angle the rock and all that it has to hold and offer, as it is to try on different glasses and take the time see, walk with, learn, understand and respect and it is of utter most importance on so many levels that we have, accept and respect diversity and inclusivity especially for us all to have mental wellbeing.  

With hope and love
Rainbow πŸ’–πŸŒˆπŸŒ 

Tuesday, 13 February 2018

January Favourites!
  • Why Don't Men Talk?, Let's Get Vulnerable, The Ugliness Of Body Image πŸ˜πŸ‘ŒπŸ™πŸ’ŽπŸŽ€ HOLY FARRRRKKKK!!! This is one of the most needed, epic, brilliant, beautiful and sexiest series I have ever seen of men sitting down together and being open, raw, vulnerable, speaking about their insecurities, being kind and compassionate with each other and the world and discussing the DEEP parts of life and themselves. Thank you to all you Men (can we be best friends?!?! 😍) and huge thank you to Justin Baldoni for all the work you're doing, really this is just life and world changing 😊. I'm in awe and complete utter love with what others are doing to positively impact people and change the world for the better πŸ’“πŸ’›πŸ’šπŸ’™πŸ’œ    
  • Why I'm Done Trying To Be "Man Enough" Justin Baldoni's TED talk, gosh his mission, work and soul are GORGEOUS! πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•
  • This Is What Happens When Gender Roles Are Forced On Kids
  • How To Teach Children About Gender Equality
  • Justin Trudeau: Why I'm Raising My Kids To Be Feminists Another GORGEOUS soul! It's funny one of my last flatmates told me to look up Justin Trudeau to see how "good looking" he was though I didn't actually find him that physically attractive but damn his heart, soul, understanding, passion, kindness and the work he's doing makes him freakin' over the moon attractive πŸŒ›πŸ’ŽπŸ’ŽπŸ’ŽπŸŒœ #It'saboutthatsoul #WouldlovetoseeNZ'sPMwithCanada'sPM #Dreamteam
  • Could A Master's In Masculinity Narrow The Gender Gap? 😲😲😲I WANT TO STUDY THIS!!!! 
  • Toxic Masculinity In Boys Is Fueling an Epidemic of Loneliness
  • Meet Some Of The Men Redefining Masculinity In Kenya How I love and want to hug you all! πŸ€—
  • Changing Male Attitudes In The Middle East And The Rest Of The World: What Does It Take "Experiences of conflict can change men's ideas of self-worth and create identities rooted in extreme violence, while underlying patriarchal norms encourage men to adopt dominant, violent behaviours. Hassan wants to shift this reality. "I want to be a part of society where I made something, changed something," he says. "We have to work to improve the attitudes, to improve the behaviours,- of men- to engage men and boys to reach gender equality."
  • MenCare Partner MERGE For Equality Is Working To Change The Way We Raise Boys In The United States
  • Boys Need To Be Taught Consent By Their Fathers "Personally, I think engaging boys and men in this discussion is only a vital first step. I believe that one major source of the problem is how we define masculinity. It is time we take a good, hard look at the toxic way we teach males in our culture to look for self-worth. It should not come from physical and sexual domination of others. It should not come by exerting power and control over others. The time is long overdue to stop associating certain traits with our genitalia. It is even long overdue that we openly confront the violence against women that is far to prevalent".  ❤❤❤
  • Men Are Socialised To See Themselves As Dominant
  • Cheating and Manipulation: Confessions of a Gaslighter "Gaslighting is when you know in your gut that you have a situation read right, but the other person is trying to convince you that you read it all wrong. If this happens over a period of time one's sense of reality slowly erodes. There is a scale to gaslighting, from lying and exaggerating to controlling and domination." Must read! πŸ‘ 
  • How Shame Changes a Person's Brain 
  • Trauma, Social Justice and Eating Disorders "Recognizing the link between mental health, trauma and disordered eating is important because it can lead to healing. Furthermore, at its core it reminds us that societal structures and individual actions have direct and real impact on the mental health of individuals. Trauma, gender-based violence, and eating disorders are all social justice issues." πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘ 
  • Should Gyms Step In On Anorexic Members? There is most definitely a gap in the system with this. Evidently it's not a clear cut line on how to approach and deal with the person and situation either and is really a person by person case. Having worked in a gym I saw members who were very clearly sick and were getting sicker... and at times no one did anything. Down the line I learnt that we could let management know of the person (I only came of this information due to how open I have been with my own battles and how concerned I was with some members) they started to follow a bit of a process consisting of getting a hold of their emergency contact, sitting them down and chatting with them, requesting a medical certificate and at times banning the person. If they were working with a personal trainer that was fine. Though as someone pointed out that banning a person can often mean they just find somewhere else to go or find other means in which they may not be surrounded by others if anything happened... though not intervening I also think is incredibly dangerous and not okay. It also is made so complex in how stubborn, secretive and driven the illness is and often the denial that comes along with it. There is also the topic of exclusion and discrimination of those with mental illness. Due to my own battles with it I have a sixth sense and understanding of the illness and so did some other staff as the fitness industry has a tendency to attract those that have suffered. Though many did not and some things I heard from staff were still awfully misunderstood and stigmatized ultimately no one was given any training on eating disorders and on what to do and the process and protocols that follow. I agree with this article when it says that ALL gym staff need to go through education surrounding eating disorders as they are extremely prevalent underneath the surface and also know the process and protocols to follow in the club if they do suspect that someone maybe struggling. Perhaps eating disorder organisations, mental health services and gyms need to be communicating and collaborating together??? πŸ€”πŸ€”πŸ€”
  • 'I Am Jazz' Star Jazz Jennings: 'I Have Binge Eating Disorder' Thank you Jazz for opening up, sending you love and hugs! ❤πŸ€— I read a really great post the other day that stated "Because of the stigma about weight gain in society, many BED [sufferers] feel that their problems are down to a personal failing in self control. However, Binge Eating is more likely a symptom of unresolved or repressed problems. Eating fills a hole for them that isn't emotionally, and and [sic] is something to attempt to cover issues that need addressing. There might also be the assumption that just because of their size and outwardly positive disposition, BED sufferers aren't vulnerable or prone to collapse. Some Binge Eaters may feel that their problems are minor in comparison to others and not try to seek help overcoming their condition, thinking it can be fixed with diet, exercise and will power when the root of their behaviour can ran far deeper. Seeking medical advice or consulting a nutritionist is a good start, but the aid of a counsellor or other psychological experts is a better way to tackle the source of the condition". #Breakthatstigma! 
  • Eating Disorders in Men: Not a Phase, Not a Choice, Not a Joke
  • What To Do When You Want To Binge Eat
  • Jana Pittman's Story Tells Us An Uncomfortable Truth About Living With An Eating Disorder "Jana's experience is not uncommon. I think it is important to be aware that someone experiencing an eating disorder may still be excelling in their studies, expertise or career". 
  • Michael Phelps: 'I am extremely thankful I did not take my life' Thank you Michael Phelps for being so open and honest, I'm glad you're here too. In this post he talks about the depression he struggled with after every Olympic game even after winning all those medals which sounds on the same wave lengths as a couple posts down where a research study is mentioned about being done on the high and low musicians and roadies can face. 
  • Linkin Park's Mike Shinoda Releases 'Post Traumatic' EP After Chester Bennington's Death The rawness that Mike is sharing is helping so many and I hope it is helping him to cope too😘😘😘
  • Strike A Chord: Looking After Each Other Chester Bennington's and Mike Shinoda's wives Talinda and Anna along with Linkin Park's road manger Jim did a livestream talking about mental health and Chester. So many important topics were covered and I applaud their vulnerability and strength for talking about this and publicly too. I found the part where Talinda talked about how Chester in the months prior to his passing opened up about the shame he had surrounding his relapses with alcohol interesting and that she knew when she found out that there was alcohol in the room where he passed that he was not drunk when it took place but that he had held such intense shame over relapsing. I think the topic of shame and guilt surrounding relapses and the topic of that relapses are a part of recovery needs to be talked about more openly and publicly as whole and especially with those that struggle and family and friends surrounding the person. I've struggled with feelings of shame and guilt surrounding self harm relapses which when you're already battling urges and a mixture of intense emotions it adds another layer to a complex internal battle which can be so hard to vocalise and can all ball up into more of the same behaviour and spiralling further down. I too have found with battling eating disorder urges and desperately not giving into them so I don't have a "slip up" or "relapse" to be at times incredibly painful and struggled with accepting and normalising that sometimes you do relapse. I also found at the end of the livestream the research study that was talked about and being done surrounding artists and roadies with the transition going from home life to tour and tour to home and the impact and highs and lows of that fascinating and much needed too. 
  • How To Argue Online Without Losing Your Shit Mike and Anna Shinoda shared this on their twitters which has someone really valid points.
  • The Top 10 INFJ Careers Fellow INFJ's I see you and I adore you πŸ¦„. No wonder why the idea of doing customer service and sales or anything of the sort freaks me the hell out and makes me want to burst into a bazillion tears #Who relates?... creativity, expression, inspiring/helping, one on one or small group and deep life shit= Home and the core of my calling πŸŽ¨πŸ“šπŸ‘πŸŒ±πŸŒ·πŸŒŒπŸŒ 
  • He Named Me Malala Documentary πŸ’ŽπŸ’ͺπŸ“š 2015 documentary you can find on Netflix on Malala Yousafzai who got shot in the head by the Taliban for speaking out and standing up against them for enforcing that girls can't go to school. She survived and has become a well known advocate for women and human rights #Heroic-inspiration 😍😍😍
  • The Catastrophic Effects of Mental Health Stigma
  • Five Ways To Wellbeing At Work Toolkit
  • Halsey's Powerful Speech At NYC Women's March Yas Halsey, fierce! πŸ’™❤πŸ’™❤
  • Megan Speaks Out About Jacinda Ardern's Pregnancy Backlash-"Please Don't Tell Me You Had The Right To Know" Towards the end of last year we had a change of government and a woman become our Prime Minster here in New Zealand (Hurray on all fronts!πŸ’•) during the campaign she was asked about if she planned on starting a family which caused a huge backlash and battle over whether the country had the right to know or not as part of Jacinda's response was "It is totally unacceptable in 2017 to say that women should have to answer that question in the work place." YAS QUEEN πŸ‘Recently she announced she was pregnant in which there have been many supportive comments but also some pretty nasty ones. I LOVE what Megan who is a radio host here had to say! Get it girl! πŸ™ I'm proud we have a woman who's becoming a Mama and is here for the people for our Prime Minster 😍
  • Black Americans Suffer Most From Race Trauma, But Few Counselors Are Trained To Treat It 😭😭😭 Honestly #Fuckhate #Equalityforall
  • Gay Indian Prince Throws Open Palace Doors To Vulnerable LGBT People πŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’•❤πŸ’›πŸ’šπŸ’™πŸ’œπŸŒˆ
  • 3 Reasons Why Internet Harassment Is Not 'Freedom of Speech' HOLLA! πŸ™
  • Lizzie Velasquez: How To Make The World A Kinder Place "The world doesn't need you to change yourself to be more normal. What the world needs is people who truly embrace differences, physical and otherwise." Yes GF, you get it and keep spreading the message! πŸ¦‹πŸ˜ŠπŸ¦‹
  • Iceland's New PM is a 41 Year Old Anti-War Feminist and Environmentalist
  • Being a Celebrity: A Phenomenology of Fame Sooooo intriguing! 
  • Iceland Makes It Illegal To Pay Men More Than Women
  • Pastel Goth Unicorn Wedding For $1500 ☠πŸ’“πŸ’›πŸ’šπŸ’™πŸ’œπŸ’—πŸ¦„πŸ’‹
  • Gala Darling: Year In Review Questions To Make 2018 The Best Ever ⛈πŸŒˆπŸ¦„πŸ‘‘ You all know how I adore this OG Queen, gosh and her accent is freakin' ADORABLE! 😍
  • Gala darling: The Biggest Lessons I Learned In 2017... That I'm Taking With Me Into 2018 πŸ’“πŸ’›πŸ’šπŸ’™πŸ’œπŸ’—
  • Panic! At The Disco: Bohemian Rhapsody Live 😲😍 So I think all of us who listen to Panic! we all knew that Brendon Urie could sing but SHESSSHHHH a ton of bricks Urie you pull this one off mighty fine πŸ™ŒπŸ™ Still waiting for you to marry me πŸ˜‰πŸ˜˜πŸ˜‚
  • Queen: Another Bites The Dust Live At Wembley 1986 Of course Panic!'s version sent me off down a Freddie Mecury and Queen YouTube rabbit hole πŸ˜‚ Freddie's flamboyantness is one of the most sexiest things along with that ass shake at 2.59! and another live version 1981 with Freddie in short shorts and epic strut! YASSSS FREDDIE DARLIN'! πŸ˜πŸ˜ŽπŸ’‹
  • Freddie Mercury Funny Moments (Part 1) What a sassy savage Queen he his! πŸ˜‰πŸ‘‘πŸ’Ž
  • Freddie Mercury's Vocal Improvisation With Public
  • Fall Out Boy: Sugar We're Going Down Live Acoustic Ahhhhh can I have both Brendon Urie and Patrick Stump serenade me pretty please with a cherry on top?!?! πŸ˜‡πŸ’πŸ˜…πŸ’
  • The Voice Kids Auditions Lara: Sugar We're Going Down Beautifully and uniquely done!

With hope and love
Rainbow πŸŒˆπŸŒ πŸ’–

P.S: As Mark Groves stated "Flawed and fucking proud. To being human- Cheers" I too am deeply flawed and fucking proud- cheers fellow humans ☀☁⛈⛆🌈

Sunday, 11 February 2018


Each year is a chance to learn, experience and grow, I know by now you can plan it all out but it won't always turn out the way you hope. Some years can be magnificent others utter disasters while some can be a mixture of both though when you look back in reflection there is always lessons and blooming to be held amongst it even in the spaces that feel like they can't possibly seem to bear any kind of sweet fruits. Character building and deep compassion are ones I love, each and every part makes you more of who you are in some form or another and gives you more knowledge about the world and your truth. It's okay to not be okay and it's okay to be on a different road, years should never be compared to your neighbours and friends, journey's are as unique as the individual, unfollow anything that makes you wallow in self hate and move on from people and places that are clearly in the past. Change and evolving is part of the process and letting go from what has come and gone and is no longer truly a part of you and your journey is necessary. Feel the full range of human emotions it is a natural part of us and the roller-coaster of life and reach out to those you trust, no one is ever alone, don't stay silent as easy as it is to do so and as hard as it is to speak up please open your mouth, don't let your secrets kill you. Be fucking brave and I'm meaning the type of bravery where you sit alone with yourself and think about trying or changing something, gathering information and talking to those around you about it, figuring out pros and cons, barriers and plans and making a calculated jump... be fucking brave-I believe in you. Whatever this year holds for you and I, I hope it holds pieces of magic and good madness and no doubt it will have growth, it's a late one but happy 2018 my friends. ❤πŸ’›πŸ’šπŸ’™πŸ’œ

With hope and love
Rainbow πŸŒˆπŸŒ πŸ’–

P.S: Happy early Valentines day, hope you get your self loving on! πŸ’˜πŸ’ŸπŸŽ€πŸŒΉπŸ’‹πŸ’ŽπŸ‘‘

Tuesday, 16 January 2018

December Favourites!
  • 81 Awesome Mental Health Resources When You Can't Afford A Therapist This is one to read through, share and bookmark πŸ’—
  • Rewriting The Man Code: The New Masculinity "A global movement is building, of men who are exploring new and varied identities, rediscovering their true natures and redefining male strength. Strong and silent types are being replaced with more diverse and fulfilling ways of being men". πŸ™ As you will see I'm LIVING for this topic, the articles, conversations and the work that's being done to progress the world, it's so incredibly encouraging and hopeful to see! HOPE IS ALIVE!😍 
  • Addressing Masculinity In India "It's critical to involve men in the discussion if we want to tackle deep-rooted gender inequalities in the country".
  • Be A Man: The Detrimental Effects Of Toxic Masculinity On Men's Mental Health
  • Male Feminists Are The Turkeys Who Voted For...A Long And Fulfilling Life  "Guys: pick a team. You can lament the way our culture makes it harder for men to look after themselves emotionally or you can hate feminism, which has been saying exactly that for years... but you can't do both. You can say that domestic abuse against men is under-reported or you can ask yourself why men find it particularly difficult to report. You can complain that boys are under-achieving in schools or you can question the unruly, disruptive, "reading is for queers", "don't be a girlie swot" stereotype that the culture still expects boys to perform. You can regret that men die younger or you can ask why so many of us seem to think it's a woman's job to tell us to go to the doctor." 😍 PREACH from the roof tops!
  • How the Patriarchy Exploits Toxic Masculinity and What You Can Do About It
  • Highly recommend checking out this website and the work that is being done, also here is their Facebook page which is where I'm getting some of these articles I'm sharing here πŸ™πŸ™ŒπŸ’Ž
  • Equal Community Foundation is freakin' wonderful too and here's their Facebook page
  • TIME Person of the year 2017: The Silence Breakers Changing the world! So proud, thank you all for your bravery πŸ’–
  • 'Time' Including Men As "Silence Breakers" Reminds Us Sexual Violence Isn't Just A Women's Issue It can affect ANYONE and this is a power and control issue.
  • Emotional Abuse: Understanding the Power and Control Wheel
  • Physical and Sexual Violence: Understanding the Power and Control Wheel
  • Male Privilege: Understanding the Power and Control Wheel "I'm smarter than she is, I'm better than she is, if in any way she becomes equal to me than I as a man get diminished. Because his identity is so grounded in this notion of superiority over women." Well there it is... πŸ‘ŒπŸ‘ŒπŸ‘Œ. When I looked up the power and control wheel more I saw this applied to privilege as a whole too. I can see how superiority is like a drug to some people and how it feeds them and when it's wrapped up in their identities and they have no idea who they are without it, when they have not been taught to learn and express who they truly are, when we've taught that "men have to be strong, don't be weak, don't be less than, don't show emotions, don't talk about your feelings these are feminine traits, don't be and don't associate with feminine traits because feminine=weakness, and that =inferiority and "I as a man can not, am not and will not be less than" which can be so wrapped up in intense feelings of shame... shit no wonder why some people and men don't want to let power, control and superiority go and have troubles with acknowledging, accepting and working on this. The Patriarchal system may have given men power, dominance and control but that has still come at a severe cost of denying them of the ability to express, discover and be themselves fully and has held them too, to rigid gender roles that are so damn harmful. I think it's incredibly important to acknowledge, speak and work on this. This is not about man hating and is also not about women taking over the world and overpowering men or a certain group taking over. This is not about saying masculinity is bad however toxic masculinity is and that ultimately we all have "masculine and feminine" traits on a varying scale which is vital and no one should be denied or shamed for them and that we should be able to explore and express them and ourselves in healthy ways. This is about acknowledging how this system hurts US ALL and working to create a world where the system and cultures no longer hurts ANYONE and we are all EQUAL, INCLUSIVE, DIVERSE and FREE. 
  • Minimizing, Denying and Blaming: Understanding the Power and Control Wheel
  • Intimidation: Understanding the Power and Control Wheel
  • Coercion and Threats: Understanding the Power and Control Wheel
  • Using Children: Understanding the Power and Control Wheel
  • Economic Abuse: Understanding the Power and Control Wheel
  • Isolation: Understanding the Power and Control Wheel
  • Power and Control Wheel: Understanding the Power and Control Wheel Watching these videos and understanding more about violence and knowing the signs is really important.
  • Narcissism: It's About Unhealthy Power and Control
  • Sadiq Khan On His Plans To Drive Gender Equality Forward In 2018 "We need more boys and men getting it, not just because they are fathers of daughters or because they have a sister they care about, but because we will benefit as a society if we have equality," he added, before quoting Malala Yousafzai -"We cannot succeed while half of us are held back." Can I hug you Sadiq Khan? 😊
  • Why Escaping Poverty Isn't Nearly As Easy As People Think THIS! So many people believe living in and getting out of poverty is a choice... it is not and to put it bluntly it is very ignorant to think so and highly uninformed. So many people do not recognise the privilege they have or take the time to listen, learn and have compassion for others, their stories and situations... which I also think partly comes back down to people's beliefs being tested and also wanting to be superior to others. My tutor of my Mental Health and Addictions course noted that getting out of poverty the majority of the time happens out of share luck and he related it to the card game of Presidents and Assholes.
  • 12+Ways Job Applications Discriminate Against Applicants
  • 4 Myths About Schizophrenia It's Time To Bust
  • How We Met Our 7-Year-Old Daughter's Eating Disorder An eating disorder at any age is just brutal but at 7 years old...πŸ’” 
  • Aly Raisman: This Is Survival YAS ALY!!! πŸ’—πŸ™ I love how Aly is standing up and being so outspoken and fierce against her own horrific experience, for others and the wrong doings done by USA Gymnastics, U.S Olympic Team and Larry Nassar. 
  • Male Rape: Breaking the Silence, review: the importance of this documentary cannot be overstated I watched the documentary here, how long this link will work due to the copyright side of YouTube I don't know. Thank you to all these Men coming forward and sharing their stories, your courage is deeply respected and admired. Men you are not alone and I'm sorry this has happened to you. It's important for you to talk, be believed and to have access to receive the help and support needed. It is NOT your fault, it is NEVER your fault that something like this has happened to you or anybody else.
  • The Therapist: Corey Taylor Corey Taylor from Slipknot and Stone Sour opening up with a therapist about his childhood in which he experienced poverty, domestic violence, rape and an absent father and subsequently battled with addiction and had a suicide attempt. Thank you Corey! πŸ’—
  • Rainbow Beard Oh my oh my I have more than just hearts in my eyes! I LIVE! This was done in support of legalising gay marriage in Australia and I scream yes to it all! Slaying in every way! Fuck I wanna date a man about the colourful beard/hair, equality, self love, kindness and fitness life and if he wears nail polish even better! πŸ˜‰πŸŒˆπŸ¦„... fuck it let's chuck a request for Rainbow Glitter Pecs in there too! πŸ˜‚
  • Laverne Cox Presents: 'The T World' Documentary I LOVE LAVERNE COX she is damn flippin' stunning inside and out 😍. This documentary interviews 7 young people on being transgender, we should all take the time to watch and listen. I love you all and thank you for sharing your stories with us πŸ’—
  • 7 Libraries To Inspire Your Own Dreamy Book Nook I swear I just want to live in a creative cottage with a nice garden and pets, home gym and a comfy library... #Introvertdream πŸŒΉπŸŒ³πŸŒ·πŸ¦‹πŸΎπŸΆπŸ°πŸ±πŸ‹πŸŽ¨πŸ“š 
  • The Mighty's Mental Health Heroes of 2017 So proud of everyone on here especially Talinda πŸ’—
  • DOCS: The Woman With 7 Personalities One of my classmates and friends suggested and lent me Today I'm Alice: Nine Personalities, One Tortured Mind to read, pre warning me that it was very graphic. It is about Alice who develops Multiple Personality Disorder also known as Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) through having experienced severe sexual abuse at the hands of her father from the time she was 6 months old and also by others as he took her to a paedophilia ring from the time she was about 4. Growing up she started to have visions to what had happen to her but struggled to comprehend if it was real or not and like it had happen to someone else and she was there watching it as an outsider. She develops Anorexia in her teen years and also starts to hear voices from outside herself to kill herself and further along starts hearing voices inside her self and missing chunks of time to which she can't recall where she was, what happened or how she obtained certain items and is later diagnosed with Multiple Personality Disorder. Alice's story is extremely heavy, heart breaking and I as mentioned graphic though her bravery, vulnerability and strength is awe inspiring to say the least. Multiple Personality Disorder is most often connected with having experienced severe trauma in childhood so much so that a person's personality essentially splits as a form of survival and protection from the abuse... that is just so heart breaking and sickening to think that another human being can do such horrific things to another person though incredible that the mind can do such a thing to protect and survive. Alice and her story deserves an audience, an audience for people to learn, understand and to gain compassion though I do however suggest if you have experienced your own sexual trauma or are sensitive to such a topic that this book could be triggering so please consider this when making the decision to read or not. The documentaries above and below are good watches too and don't detail the trauma. All of them do a great job of helping to understand the disorder, break the stigma's associated with it and shine a light on such beautiful, courageous souls who are hero's.
  • All Of Me: Dissociative Identity Disorder Documentary Jess is gorgeous and such a beautiful soul and she did such great job of sharing her life with DID and explaining the disorder itself. Her alters Ollie, Jake, Ed and Jamie are all just as gorgeous and special as she is. If you search through her videos you can watch a day in the life or other videos of her alters.
  • 'I am gay': Wisconsin Priest Comes Out To Parishioners, Gets Standing Ovation πŸ‘πŸ‘πŸ‘ You are loved and I'm so happy you are free to be you GregoryπŸŽ‰πŸŽ‰πŸŽ‰
  • Mike Shinoda Explains What His Grief 'Looks' Like After Chester Bennington's Suicide πŸ’”πŸ’”πŸ’” Sending love continually Linkin Park's way and I praise Mike and the LP family for being open, supportive, raising awareness and starting conversations.
  • Brain Imaging Findings Could Lead To New Eating Disorder Treatments
  • Is Porn Destroying A Generation?
  • 4 Reasons Anti-Feminist Women Hate Feminism (And What They're Missing) Sometimes I feel the fundamental cores of what feminism is truly about has just been so skewered and misunderstood by some people πŸ˜”. Though I do see how some of it is easy to fall into or misinterpret like thinking it's about man hating or thinking it's about women taking over the world. I do think it should just be called Gender Equality as it sounds inclusive for everyone on the spectrum of human though at it's core to me at least it's about equality for all and again acknowledging how the Patriarchal system hurts us ALL.
  • This Is Why We Still Need Feminism
  • Why We Still Need Feminism and another one, such solid pieces.
  • Activism Needs Introverts Shout out to fellow Introverts, who you are is needed! 😘
  • Student Suicide: Real Stories
  • Diabulimia: The World's Most Dangerous Eating Disorder
  • Why We Seek The High Of Stardom The topic of fame is so interesting to me... how people crave it, how people think it will fix them, how we're obsessed with it, how it makes people more prone to isolation, depression, substance abuse, addiction and mental illness as a whole, how we think it =happiness, the attention and admiration from others, self esteem, the rise and fall of stardom and the addiction to it, itself. The money, the social status, the self centeredness of it, the corruption and how that all ties into our world. I've wanted to be a public figure in some form to inspire and help others through fitness, self love, eating disorder awareness, creativity etc though you can't really mention public figure without thinking about the "fame aspect" of it and looking back I can see how a part of me use to think how it would somehow make me "good enough" too and make people like me. Now I'm like ehhhhhh yeh nah, I'll just keep doing what makes my heart sing and is authentic. I'm not interested in trying to "pick up followers" whoever reads reads and if I make some cool opportunities and dreams happen along the way sweet. Most of all at my core I just want to inspire, create and help. Celebs themselves have spoken out against fame and we've recently seen in the YouTube world how people can be driven in such in an unhealthy way and it all lead to it being just all messed up, all kinds of wrong and losing basic human respect. The fitness industry in this aspect too is well... yeah... I stopped following a lot of people and have a lot of respect for good trainers genuinely helping people. If you really want to help people or do what you love it's not always about a mass audience, it's about authenticity, passion, knowledge and humanity. I feel at times these can be stripped away by what it takes at times to get and maintain a mass audience in the public arena and social media world... then really what is it truly coming down too?. Fame though is interesting to study and observe and it can be one hell of a drug.  
  • From Ashes to New: Lost and Alone and From Ashes to New: Breaking Now  If you like Papa Roach, Breaking Benjamin, Linkin Park and Hollywood Undead check these guys out!
  • Issues: Mad At Myself and Issues: Never Lose Your Flames Tyler Carter ohhh how you could sing to me anytime and my heart would be all mushy πŸ’˜πŸ’˜πŸ’˜
With hope and love
RainbowπŸŒˆπŸŒ πŸ’–

Wednesday, 10 January 2018

Bloody Wise, Hella Kind & A Fireball Of Passion!

If you ever are in a situation that leaves you in deep hurt, pained in agony and twisted and tormented balled up in anger feeling like you have know idea how to move forward, heal and let go- allow yourself to feel it ALL. Let it hurt, allow yourself to cry, be mad, sad, frustrated and full of hatred though know that it is not all there is or all of who you are or will be. Allow yourself to learn and grow, allow yourself to see another side to the pain you're experiencing. You, your heart and this experience is not here to just be full of pain, hate and resentment, allow yourself as much time as needed, make room for the ups and downs and let it give you the ability to gain in a positive way. Let it make you bloody wise, hella kind and a fireball of passion.

With hope and love
Rainbow πŸŒˆπŸŒ πŸ’–

Thursday, 14 December 2017

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you beautiful people! πŸ’–

This year was well interesting... as I previously talked about on here I was really struggling earlier this year and had been for some time though I can say the last 4 months has been better than the last 2 1/2 years which I'm grateful for, it still is one day and step at a time though it is better. I can say after that and going back to study it has made me really really passionate about equality on all levels and learning more and more about the world and to continue to be a part of, fight and stand up for this. What I know to be true for me and what has continued to be true and strengthen through this time as I've been moving through the pain that, that storm brought is the importance of being ourselves, self expression, self love and acceptance for who people are.

If you're ever in environment, around people and/or put into a situation that doesn't align with your truth as painful, uncertain and impossible as it may seem... leave. In my case it took so many crappy situations and an absolutely last straw to do so, with so many dead end attempts of trying to move on along the way. It might not be easy and smooth sailing in the moment to pluck up the courage and leave and for sometime afterwards as you deal with the distress, uncertainty and fear though as Oprah and Ellen talk about "No matter the cost at the time as long as you stay true to exactly who you are you will be rewarded in ways you can't imagine". I found a great deal of comfort in this and I too in my heart believe good and fulfilling things will indeed eventually come out of being true and living out our authentic selves. It's ultimately essential to our happiness, our ability to express ourselves, to show up fully in life, to live out our purpose and to have meaning and connection. I deeply needed this message and many more of it's kind during my struggles and I hope it gives comfort, courage and hope to you all in some form.

I haven't been super active on here and the blogging world as a whole due to study and needing some time to myself and time to reflect and learn. Just popping in with blogging at random like this without a schedule will most likely continue as it's a great way to share, be creative and connect but takes the pressure to post and "keep up with content" away, I'm tossing that notion in the trash. The odd YouTube video may arise though for now I've retired that idea too. 

Hope you all have safe and loving holidays! If you wish to share about your year down below I would love to read!

With hope and love
Rainbow :) xoxo